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TRANSFORMATION TUESDAY

 

Once upon a time, I was the boy on the left and would have believed what my life became. Didn’t even plan to live. I thought I’d never make it to 25. By 20 I was in Bangkok. By 23 in Japan. I took myself to the other ends of the Earth. I wouldn’t believe it back then, so I’m just glad I never quit life. Can you imagine how many youths need you, and I mean you specifically, to help them see their future? Do it! There are thousands more like me, who need you, right now.

 

Twenty years apart. It’s been a lifetime’s worth of change. Somebody took the bottom picture of me cuttin high school to be a wino on the senior cut day and not planning to live past 25. I was an alcoholic by the time I was 15 and unaware of the future I was creating. The top picture is also me, but at 35 looking back with my little girl at the hopeless boy who didn’t plan to live this long like, “I’m just happy to be here.”

Journal Entries: 2019

I’m now 15 years older than I thought I’d ever live and I’ve done a lot with these 40 years too. I’ve sold everything from drugs to real estate. Studied everything from Self to Pluto as I’ve been to over 16 countries and hundreds of cities. I’ve seen most of the U.S. firsthand. I also taught for 15 years in the public school system teaching children everything from how to read to how to live. 

I was married for 7 years and was a caregiver for 3 until I lost my wife to cancer. Then I raised two girls solo as I battled crazy turmoil. I loved, lost, and loved again. That revolutionary love though. Not western romance. The Gods and Earths gave me the keys to civilization, righteousness, knowledge of self, the science of everything in life, love, peace, and happiness. 

 

Sometimes I get overwhelmed by love, but love is not an act or a feeling. It begins with self. We’re not used to processing it, huh? I ain’t know happiness would cost this much sadness! We’re so used to the pain we can be scared of love, thinking only pain will come with it. 

But what if we valued the love enough to withstand the pain? Learn how so others can. We project our issues onto others and they already have their issues to deal with! I’m looking at life differently these days cause I’ve never gotten better while getting bitter. The more I better myself the easier it is for anyone to love and deal with me. 

Journal Entries: 2017

“Heaven On Earth

“The best part about creating your own heaven is how unreal it seems when you compare it with the hell you came from. I was 15 in these pictures. Can you tell I had vision? Yet can you tell I still couldn’t see that things would be different one day?”

I grew up an only child. I grew estranged from my family by the time I was 5 and was a runaway by 10. I left home in Jersey City at 16 and moved across the country to become a man in the South, on my own. In Jersey, the hood raised me. In Atlanta, the 5% raised me… In the hood!  By the time I was 20 I hustled my way into buying my first house. In the hood! I stayed there for 16 years. That’s where I built a family around me since I ain’t have one of my own! Most of the family in this picture right here, especially those in their twenties now…those are my babies. I been building with and raising them like they my own blood for over 16 years now. If they need anything, I got em. If I need anything, they got me. Young, black, gifted and fearless, but above all, they’re family. If you ain’t got it, you make it. 

Journal Entries: 2018

“Don’t live in fear and love yourself first.” – Mecca Wise, 2012

I’m thankful to have been strong enough to not only survive the trials I’ve endured but to continue teaching through them. Even when all I could teach was by my own example as I traversed every tragedy imaginable. You either spend your moments in fear or in love. Like you’re either seeing things for the negative or the positive and it’s based on your perception more than the reality of it. If you caught glimpses of it, they were a look into the man behind the books, the life of not a teacher, but a practitioner of the principles I want you to use to survive your own struggles.

I’ve made success, stability, and above all, peace and happiness… Out of this dark mountain made of broken pieces of myself and all I’ve cared about. It’s no castle in the quicksand. I make the darkness shine like melanin. I had a terrible temper. Never been even-tempered and grief made me worse. I was always aggravated or anxiety-ridden after Mecca died.